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no promises

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 12:03:43 GMT

so its been over a year...

hmm...

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 12:28:23 GMT

Damn you! All of you!!!! Damn essays! Damn letters! Damn deadlines!

Stupid freakin girl! Hope you freakin get where it is you want to go and what you want to get then freakin lose it all and realize all the freakin people you've mislooked and trodded on with that one-track driven unconscious selfishness of yours! Hope your friendlessness haunts you someday and I know it will... all these freakin things will catch up with you someday and i hope you realize you've helped no one about learning anything except how to depend on other people! You're not the freakin wounded, helpless, abused, selfless saint you seem to be and people think you to be! Hope you freakin realize that!!! Take it all! Take all the burden!!! Go on alienate the little that's left of your allies!!! Be a martyr! How sad. How tragic. How pathetric. How I pity. How I not. No wonder you've got no one left... and of course everyone else would blame the others because you're always the heavenly basis. Stop taking what's due to others. Not everything is for you. Get the hell out of the way! I don't want to say this but its true oh and gawd do you need to grow a freakin backbone! That's why people get away with saying bad things about you even when its to your face because you have to be soooooooo nice. You just let them. No one likes suck-ups dearest that, can only get you so far... and not everyone says things about you because they envy you but because they actually want to be responsible of their responsibilities and want to do them for themselves you know...earn their own credits for their own hard work and be recognized for it but you just have to do it all cause you can ohhhhhh just do it all. Lovely...just lovely when can I hear of a major breakdown hmmm? hmmm? Determination to reach goals and obssessive perseverance does not prevent you from tiring you know... and not everything you can do...that's just the truth. Isn't it beautiful, the truth, I mean. Don't kill yourself of exhaustion just yet. Let it go!

Arghhhhhh!

It's okay...It's fine...It's alright...You're all going to die anyway!!!!!!! Stupid damned overachievers! Go on kill each other because of competition that would just make this school year a whole lot interesting!

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 06:37:47 GMT

“Beauty is Truth, Truth Beauty”

First thought that came to mind was ‘uh what?’ Truth is beauty, beauty truth. The first part I agree with; Truth is indeed beauty because there is something in what’s true that fascinates and kind of enchants people... The question though is how one would know that something is true because not all that catches one's fancy are true; an intricate web of lies and such can sustain that attention just as well yet there would still be something different...

The second one though, not so much. Not everything that is beautiful is true or real after all false truths can be beautiful you know...it depends on how you see things so if you're the type of person who'd rather face the harsh and so-called ugly truth instead of deluding yourself with the spell-binding...alterations then good for you. But, if you're more inclined to the beautiful but not so true alternative then be prepared to pick up what's left of your shattered illusion when it all ends. It's a choice one makes when interpreting 'truth is beauty, beauty truth' because in a way your understanding of it may be true then again it maybe not...

It can be both things at the same time... I believe everything's double-edged in a way...

-WP: 11/16/05

Music of the Soul

Well, one could take that in a lot of ways... As for me, it’s be like this; the music of one’s soul would be what that person is all about may it be attitude, values, habits, emotions, experiences, etc. these are all different things but they maybe more similar than you think. They’re all connected in a way... different music... like a variation of songs for days like thess and days like those. The music of your soul is who you truly are... I can’t explain it, not as well as I’d like... everything about us contribute to the varying and ever changing themes of the music of our soul.

-WP: 11/16/05

My Favorite Song

I don’t think that I actually have one fave song... well, not one choosing one is so out of the question because its usually dependent on what I’m feeling at a specific moment. Then again, there would be the fact that I can’t think of any song right now... so I’ll just describe it.

One sure thing about it though is that it relates to what and how I feel (as I’ve said before)... its an expression of myself that isn’t so out-right given... the lyrics would be something of actual importance, and would in some way would make you reflect or think. It would have a soothing melody…it would be something I’d never get tired of listening to. It is something inspirational and definitely something to ponder on and think about…

It would be a song that could be interpreted in a lot of ways but for me, it would simply be a song that expresses a part of me... (haha the last part sounds poetic... or so I think)

-WP: 11/18/05

Sea Games ‘05

I know that the 23^rd Sea Games is being held here and in other places all over the whole country... It’s like this great competition and all…quite prestigious and coveted but I really haven’t seen even just one game. Not that I’m particularly bothered by the fact because it’s a fact that some people just aren’t sports people, and I am part of those some people.

It would probably enrich one culturally, I suppose, but its sports, games mainly so honestly who could think of cultural enriching? Moving on and returning to the main topic at hand, Sea Games ’05 would help the city’s economy and tourism and even the provinces for that matter...

The games are probably enjoyable to watch because the people competing are some of the best out there...

-WP: 11/25/05

Advent

Of all the things to write about... it comes with the season I guess... anyway advent is a time for reflection; it is a time for self-evaluation. One must search ones self if he or she is ready for a new beginning... Something like a renewal of one’s life during Christmas; it’s a chance for a start over.

It’s a time to prepare for something we’ve expected all along. When I hear advent…I picture or well, I see purple… probably because of the Advent wreath that I’ve been accustomed to see every single year…blah…

-WP: 11/30/05

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 10:56:48 GMT

This is so freakin irritating!!! Bloody prom!!! Kailinit gid ya! My mom just told us that her aunt, one of the sisters of her father just called regarding our couzin...see its like this... his other couzin whose name i won't mention, a girl...a pretentious one at that...asked him to the prom...his mom made him choose...pretentious couz who doesn't even know his mom and grandmother (he's our maternal couz) or us...me and my sis...note that i narrow my eyes in suspicion and freakin disdain not that there's anything wrong with him...well maybe a bit in the people skills department or maybe that's just me...hmmm...hey! what i mean is that everyone and i mean everyone can be socially inept at times...other most of and others rarely...anyway...moving on you know what i'm feeling lazy again and i'm reading a really really good fic so see ya ok...its Tomoyo/Eriol... its entitled Masquerade by Ekai Ungson....

Night!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 11:49:27 GMT

I'm tired and freakin sick of it all!!!

I despise and loathe Mitzi! That is all I have to say! DAMN HER TO AND WITH WHEREVER, WHATEVER AND WHOEVER IT IS SHE BLOODY HATES!!!!!! MAKE HER FUCKIN SUFFER!!!!!!!

Include all the others too!!!!!!!

Stop complicating my already complicated and tangled life!!!!!!!!!!

Argghhhh!!!!!!!Put them all in hospitals...serve them right...

She's stressed? Yeah well freakin so are we! Damn it I wish so much that they just lost the freakin dance thing another thing to add to that oompaloompa's so-called grief and exhaustion!!

SLAVE-DRIVER CONTROL FREAKS THE LOT OF THEM!!!!!!

aH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 11:31:53 GMT

A lot of things have been going on in school recently...a surprise coz its so freakin boring most of the bloody time! I'm not talking about it here though...involves drinking and what not...want to know about it? Message me and i'll give you the address of a much more hidden blog...

Moving On...

Damn...speaking of Moving On... i made a poem entitled just that...sadly i left it in the physics lab...we had a batch meeting there...written in a one whole intermediate pad....let this be a proof that it is mine!!!!

It was dated 10/2/05...entitled Moving On...with lines like...

Echoes of laughter that we long to hear,

All those genuine smiles

So innocent, so care free, so gone...

Not the exact order nor the same words of that second line...I have awful memory...grrr...

Basta...Its mine!!!!!

Whatever...

We did the real area project for PE again...I hate her!!! I despise her!! It's so unfair for us you know!!! That bitch of a teacher!!!

The Gatoraders are going to have a HALLOWEEN PARTY!!!!!!!

There are so many deadlines this week...oh I FREAKIN HATE my Cle/World History teacher...they're all slave drivers...

I'm Mesi now...muahahahaha

Lots of longtests in the following days...

I DONT HAVE A ME LIFE ANYMORE!!! WELL I DO...NOT BEH MUCH!

Still Surviving Circumstances,

Mesi...

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 02:40:29 GMT

Paranoid You are continually suspicious
without cause, constantly suspecting that
others are decieving or exploiting you. In
conversation you take offense where none is
intended, when someone is whispering with
another person you belive it is about you.
Always you read threatening or insulting
meanings from what would be normal words and
actions. Because of this you do not confide in
other people as you are sure they will let you
down. You can be emotionally cut off from other
people and reluctant to form attachments with
them. Characteristics include being
mistrustful, cold, defensive and
hypersensitive.

What's your personaltiy disorder? [pics]
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Your element is Darkness. You are the truly evil
one with a black heart and no soul. People
avoid you since you cause so much trouble and
enjoy seeing others in pain. You would like
nothing more than to rule this earth and be
hailed by all. Everyone is annoying and stupid
anyway and are a waste of oxygen. You are
probably a cast-away from society and family
and have had a tough life where you learned to
live the hard way. Now you want revenge on your
pain and can no longer feel love nor care. You
do not wish to befriend anyone and you
certainly do not wish to be in love. As a
student of having learnt everything the hard
way, you tend to be manipulative when you want
something for yourself. In your head there is
only you that matters, and why shouldn't it? No
one cares about you so why should you? In
school you probably ditch classes and go
somewhere else instead of sitting in a
classroom. It is not that you are stupid,
because you're probably very smart, but
everyone annoy you. And having to sit in the
same room, breathing the same air as your
enemies is not desired by you. Rate and
message!

What is your element? [with pics + detailed answeres]
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Your wise quote is: "Reality bites with a
variety of sizes of teeth"(-Tony Follari)
As a person, you think life is just plain
painful, horrible and everything else you don't
like. Happy people confuse you. Alot. I mean,
why are they so happy anyway? You are depressed
and perhaps utterly alone and live life rather
montone. You feel there is no reason to really
be here and feel helpless.

What wise quote fits you? [pics]
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Friday, September 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 11:57:03 GMT

I Just read the epilouge of Petals by Danielle Night at Fiction Press id#1814518... It's over!!!!*sigh* I learned a lot of different flower meanings from there...she answered a note their...again...i think...108 roses mean 'will you marry me?' cute!

That's the romantic in me trying to get out...whatever...shush about it...

About the Araw ng Wika...oh was it screwed up! Too much to be coincidental, the events were, bordering deliberate probably was...

Sabayang Pag-awit...(singing)

The 'Tabing-Ilog' song was sooooo out of tune...the contest piece was alright though...well or so they say...
We got 2nd place! Imagine that...the seniors only got third...

The sophomores got first...their tape was all screwed up by the sound system too and it was announced that they received deductions and still managed to come out on top...so what does that imply? We sucked that much...that's what!

Composo

Controversial much...their guitars were sooooooo out of tune...someone turned the tune keys...and the guitars were out of place too...so tell me did someone the guitars mve by themselves and loosened themselves up? I think not!

Well whoever it was the problem got fixed Jamie's teacher saved the day by arriving in the nic of time...kind of...Composo won 2nd not bad...it was expected that the seniors would win and they did...it was cool for all...kind of

We lit candles to show our support...ironic...the juniors uniting? a phenomenon but guess who comes with fingers threatening violation reports? yep dear tyrant Prefect of Formation...a nun...whatever...a batchmate was itching to stand and make a rude gesture...not mentioning who coz this 411 might get to the wrong people...not that they'd actually know or that someone would actually read this....whatever...we tried

Every one wants to rebel nowadays...or contemplating to...yeah!

Creative Native Dance

Their tape was recorded on by the freshwomen now how the hell did that happen?!? Fishy don't you think? The seniors', juniors', and sophomores' tapes stopped but theirs didn't...hmmmmm...implications....we still got 2nd...

Everyone marvel and wonder at the solving problem capabilities of the Juniors 2005-2006!!! Hail us!!!

I'm tired...next time again...

see ya!

Annette...Mesi now k?

inta gid ya sa akon ah...kitatch! shush ha!!!!

Monday, August 29, 2005

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 08:08:13 GMT

Life is all about balance. Darkness can't be
without light, and light can't be without
darkness. You see everything through different
angeles to gain perspective over situations.
You act rather rational and people can find you
stiff and/or emotionless due to this. Life is
not really that good to you, yet it's not so
bad. Like everything else, you need to balance
it in order to find peace.

How do you see life?
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"Awake, yet never truly alive, I seek
valuation beyond reality"
Life is unfullfilling for you, and you aren't very
fond of it. What you like is your own
imaginative world, which can be your daydreams,
stories you write or anything similar. You
always prefer that before the actual life. To
people you come off as quite lonesome, and you
may wish you had more friends, but you are more
of a hoper than someone who takes action. That
is how you remain lonely. Or maybe you just
don't find anyone who you can relate to. Inside
you feel empty, like you are missing something
important that you can't quite put a finger on
what it is. Somehow you wish to be swept away
from the normality and led into something
extraordinary. This has yet to happen, and you
keep on feeling dissapointed with the little
that life has to offer. At least you continue
to express yourself through
art/writing/poems/daydreaming.

What is Your Phrase? [for darker people]
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Your power is: Clairvoyance

Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.
Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like suprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 14:16:14 GMT

Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from
the world. Something has really hurted you,
which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you
feel save and that is why you stay there.

Please rate ^^

What kind of dark person are you?
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Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone. "When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face." The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love. As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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