no promises

so its been over a year...

hmm...

Currently Listening Scars By Papa Roach see related

Damn you! All of you!!!! Damn essays! Damn letters! Damn deadlines!

Stupid freakin girl! Hope you freakin get where it is you want to go and what you want to get then freakin lose it all and realize all the freakin people you've mislooked and trodded on with that one-track driven unconscious selfishness of yours! Hope your friendlessness haunts you someday and I know it will... all these freakin things will catch up with you someday and i hope you realize you've helped no one about learning anything except how to depend on other people! You're not the freakin wounded, helpless, abused, selfless saint you seem to be and people think you to be! Hope you freakin realize that!!! Take it all! Take all the burden!!! Go on alienate the little that's left of your allies!!! Be a martyr! How sad. How tragic. How pathetric. How I pity. How I not. No wonder you've got no one left... and of course everyone else would blame the others because you're always the heavenly basis. Stop taking what's due to others. Not everything is for you. Get the hell out of the way! I don't want to say this but its true oh and gawd do you need to grow a freakin backbone! That's why people get away with saying bad things about you even when its to your face because you have to be soooooooo nice. You just let them. No one likes suck-ups dearest that, can only get you so far... and not everyone says things about you because they envy you but because they actually want to be responsible of their responsibilities and want to do them for themselves you know...earn their own credits for their own hard work and be recognized for it but you just have to do it all cause you can ohhhhhh just do it all. Lovely...just lovely when can I hear of a major breakdown hmmm? hmmm? Determination to reach goals and obssessive perseverance does not prevent you from tiring you know... and not everything you  can do...that's just the truth. Isn't it beautiful, the truth, I mean. Don't kill yourself of exhaustion just yet. Let it go!

Arghhhhhh!

It's okay...It's fine...It's alright...You're all going to die anyway!!!!!!! Stupid damned overachievers! Go on kill each other because of competition that would just make this school year a whole lot interesting! 

“Beauty is Truth, Truth Beauty”

First thought that came to mind was ‘uh what?’ Truth is beauty, beauty truth. The first part I agree with; Truth is indeed beauty because there is something in what’s true that fascinates and kind of enchants people... The question though is how one would know that something is true because not all that catches one's fancy are true; an intricate web of lies and such can sustain that attention just as well yet there would still be something different...

The second one though, not so much. Not everything that is beautiful is  true or real after all false truths can be beautiful you know...it depends on how you see things so if you're the type of person who'd rather face the harsh and so-called ugly truth instead of deluding yourself with the spell-binding...alterations then good for you. But, if you're more inclined to the beautiful but not so true alternative then be prepared to pick up what's left of your shattered illusion when it all ends. It's a choice one makes when interpreting 'truth is beauty, beauty truth' because in a way your understanding of it may be true then again it maybe not...

It can be both things at the same time... I believe everything's double-edged in a way...

-WP: 11/16/05

Music of the Soul

Well, one could take that in a lot of ways... As for me, it’s be like this; the music of one’s soul would be what that person is all about may it be attitude, values, habits, emotions, experiences, etc. these are all different things but they maybe more similar than you think. They’re all connected in a way... different music... like a variation of songs for days like thess and days like those. The music of your soul is who you truly are... I can’t explain it, not as well as I’d like... everything about us contribute to the varying and ever changing themes of the music of our soul.

-WP: 11/16/05

My Favorite Song

I don’t think that I actually have one fave song... well, not one choosing one is so out of the question because its usually dependent on what I’m feeling at a specific moment. Then again, there would be the fact that I can’t think of any song right now... so I’ll just describe it.

One sure thing about it though is that it relates to what and how I feel (as I’ve said before)... its an expression of myself that isn’t so  out-right given... the lyrics would be something of actual importance, and would in some  way would make you reflect or think. It would have a soothing melody…it would be something I’d never get tired of listening to. It is something inspirational and definitely something to ponder on and think about…

It would be a song that could be interpreted in a lot of ways but for me, it would simply be a song that expresses a part of me... (haha the last part sounds poetic... or so I think)

-WP: 11/18/05

Sea Games ‘05

I know that the 23^rd Sea Games is being held here and in other places all over the whole country... It’s like this great competition and all…quite prestigious and coveted but I really haven’t seen even just one game. Not that I’m particularly bothered by the fact because it’s a fact that some people just aren’t sports people, and I am part of those some people.

It would probably enrich one culturally, I suppose, but its sports, games mainly so honestly who could think of cultural enriching? Moving on and returning to the main topic at hand, Sea Games ’05 would help the city’s economy and tourism and even the provinces for that matter...

The games are probably enjoyable to watch because the people competing are some of the best out there...

-WP: 11/25/05

Advent

Of all the things to write about... it comes with the season I guess... anyway advent is a time for reflection; it is a time for self-evaluation. One must search ones self if he or she is ready for a new beginning... Something like a renewal of one’s life during Christmas; it’s a chance for a start over.

It’s a time to prepare for something we’ve expected all along. When I hear advent…I picture or well, I see purple… probably because of the Advent wreath that I’ve been accustomed to see every single year…blah…

-WP: 11/30/05

This is so freakin irritating!!! Bloody prom!!! Kailinit gid ya! My mom just told us that her aunt, one of the sisters of her father just called regarding our couzin...see its like this... his other couzin whose name i won't mention, a girl...a pretentious one at that...asked him to the prom...his mom made him choose...pretentious couz who doesn't even know his mom and grandmother (he's our maternal couz) or us...me and my sis...note that i narrow my eyes in suspicion and freakin disdain not that there's anything wrong with him...well maybe a bit in the people skills department or maybe that's just me...hmmm...hey! what i mean is that everyone and i mean everyone can be socially inept at times...other most of and others rarely...anyway...moving on you know what i'm feeling lazy again and i'm reading a really really good fic so see ya ok...its Tomoyo/Eriol... its entitled Masquerade by Ekai Ungson....

Night!!!!!!!!!

I'm tired and freakin sick of it all!!!

I despise and loathe Mitzi! That is all I have to say! DAMN HER TO AND WITH WHEREVER, WHATEVER AND WHOEVER IT IS SHE BLOODY HATES!!!!!! MAKE HER FUCKIN SUFFER!!!!!!!

Include all the others too!!!!!!!

Stop complicating my already complicated and tangled life!!!!!!!!!!

Argghhhh!!!!!!!Put them all in hospitals...serve them right...

She's stressed? Yeah well freakin so are we! Damn it I wish so much that they just lost the freakin dance thing another thing to add to that oompaloompa's so-called grief and exhaustion!!

SLAVE-DRIVER CONTROL FREAKS THE LOT OF THEM!!!!!!

aH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!